I have fallen in love. It is not to be wondered at, nor should anyone be surprised - I fall in love with someone/something/somewhere/somewhen daily - but this time ... this time it is different.
Oh alright, perhaps it is not different so much as it is 'here we go again.' Fine, have it your way.
Still ... who can blame me?
She is, as so many of my greatest passions have been, a rescue case. She had been condemned to what amounts to being drawn and quartered. That is to say, she was to have died a horrendous death, to have been donated to the firemen for extrication practice ... eaten, ironically, by the Jaws of Life.
By the time twenty-four hours have passed, she will have taken up residence in our back driveway.
Her looks have faded, it is true, but she has the bones of a great beauty, and I have no doubt she will respond to loving care.
She has not yet told me her name ... though I am certain I can hear her whispering ...
Should you ever visit my country, let me tell you the Rockies are not to be missed. This country is exquisite from coast to coast to coast, but there is nothing quite like the Rockies .... although ..... close in splendour are fields of flax in full flower .... and whispering waves of wheat just before harvest .... the secret hush of dim and mossy forest .... the wild crash of water against rock down east .... the peaceful kiss of water on sand out west .... the massive silence of the north, where sky and land meet at that magical point and become one .... the sharp, severe slice of southern summer wind, as dry as old bone .... this is a beautiful land .... yeah, I love my country ....
“Frrrom Rrruss-ia,” I say aloud, rolling the r’s and flattening the vowels. It seems the thing to do. The letter sits on top of the other mail on the seat beside me as I drive home from the Post Office. “Frrrom Rrruss-ia,” I say again as wait for water to boil for tea. I lay the letter on the desktop while I pay the phone bill.
It is a slim envelope bearing five stamps and three cancellation marks, resting, feather-light, in my hands. I admire the precise printing, smile at the numbers formed in penmanship typical of the part of the world from which the letter originated. I tally the cost of postage, and wonder what the conversion is to my own dollars.
I lay the letter on the table while I make supper...
...and clear the dishes...
...and watch the news.
I lean the letter against the soap dish on the counter while I have my bath...
...and check my email...
...and drink another cup of tea.
Letters have had fascinating journeys. Letters have travelled by truck, by plane, by train. Letters have gone under and over. Letters have gone through. Despite the 8,054 kilometres separating me from its sender, this letter has spent 58 days travelling from half-way around the globe. It has been a long passage, so I let it rest until it is ready to share its secrets.
It is time.
I am careful to slit the envelope neatly along the top edge. Careful, too, withdrawing the letter. I devour the words, then return to the beginning and read through again, more slowly. I smile. I sigh. I return the letter to its envelope and prop it against my tea mug.
I will read the letter again tomorrow, before slipping it into the small, worn trunk in my library - the keeper of the words that have come to me from across the globe. “Frrrom Rrruss-ia,” I will say, then fasten the latch.
Peace ~
22 April, 2010
~ A Mother Knows ~ for Scott
because you hadn’t shown for days we knew you gone they disagreed they asked her what was in her gut and she said: death he ravine has swallowed him up she said
a mother knows
officials think not know so they refused to look it will all be well they said believing wrong everything
a mother knows
you lay dead at the bottom of it all the while waiting and awaiting knowing
they found you - finally - and were sorry of course their contrition useless after the fact
ashes to ashes
two birds eagles maybe or hawks rode the wind for you
or with you
floated above the tears pressed their wings against the sky against the earthly sorrow they could not ease
we let you go with God? with peace?
with reluctance
we planted a tree for you dampened the ground with our tears we dug into the soil and changed the face of the Earth for you for remembrance and for everything a mother knows
Columnist, poet, freelance writer and scrapbooker, M. Mylene English delivers her sometimes quirky, sometimes irreverent views with honesty and humour. Her column, It'll Be Fine, appeared regularly in northern Alberta newspapers between 1992 and 2006.
Mylene has been a contributing writer for Canadian Scrapbooker magazine since 2005, and writes the LSS (Local Scrapbooking Store) article and Write On! column as well as the feature introductions. Her participation in several design teams has helped Mylene expand her creative outlook.
As print media coordinator for Dancetheatre David Earle, Mylene generates website content and creates the DtDE newsletters and programmes.
Previous work has appeared in Reader's Digest, Our Canada, Chicken Soup for the Mother and Daughter Soul, Chicken Soup for the Soul - Cookbook for Busy Moms, Chicken Soup for the Soul Celebrating Mothers and Daughters, as well as in various publications of local and regional interest.
Mylene lives in northern Alberta and says her husband and five children provide endless support of - and inspiration for - her work.
"If one cannot enjoy reading a book over and over again, there is no use in reading it at all." ~ Oscar Wilde
"We had to be who we were in order to become who we are." ~ M. Mylene English
"When things go completely wrong in life, it's not a new outlook a person needs, it's a new in-look." ~ James A. Edwards
"You cannot be too gentle, too kind. Shun even to appear harsh in your treatment of each other. Joy, radiant joy, streams from the face of one who gives and kindles joy in the heart of one who receives." ~ St. Seraphim of Sarov
"The best things in life are nearest: Breath in your nostrils, light in your eyes, flowers at your feet, duties at your hand, the path of right just before you. Then do not grasp at the stars, but do life's plain, common work as it comes, certain that daily duties and daily bread are the sweetest things in life." ~ Robert Louis Stevenson
"Always forgive your enemies. Nothing annoys them so much." ~ Oscar Wilde
"Life is an opportunity given to satisfy the hunger and thirst of the soul." ~ Pir-O-Murshid Hazrat Inayat Khan